I will be doing interviews with people that suffer mental illnesses. Each interview will have a subject to focus on. My hope is that we will help others understand that they are not alone and there are all types of people that suffer.
Todays interview will feature a soon to be mother. She will tell us about the struggles she has faced due to her mental illnesses and how she defeated them. Pregnancy does not always mean perfect beautiful glow and astounding preciousness. Sometimes it is hard, especially for those that have a battle within.
I know, I know…as a mother, cooking can seem like (and sometimes is) the last thing you want to do. I have many of these kinds of days where we end up getting take out. But hear me out as to why cooking can actually be self care.
I think we can all agree that cooking is a hobby just as much as it can be a profession.
I would never consider myself a chef, but my daughter would. She is always telling me I can be on Masterchef. I CANNOT, trust me.
But I find a lot of joy in cooking. The entire process usually makes me pretty happy. I turn on the radio and pour me the optional glass of wine. And I just have my moment.
I was never cool. I have been and have always been a dork. What I am talking about is that cool girlfriend that doesn’t need to be texted several times a day, who doesn’t cry at the drop of a hat, the one that doesn’t need a lot of attention and is just a riot to hang out with.
An easy person to be around.
I wouldn’t say that I lied to him about who I was because on the contrary I was clear about how my bipolar gets in my way. But I think a little part of me wished that I could turn into the cool girlfriend this time. Let go of all those needy feelings and just be easy going.
I have been addicted to planners long before adulthood. I would completely utilize my planner given to me in school and get made fun of. But guess who made good grades? Me.
This is my 10 reasons why I feel like everyone should be using a planner.
I have struggled for the last 9 years on whether or not I am a good mother. At some points I really felt like I was not meant to even have children. I had her when I was young so I was naive at the fact that I was not ready for a child. While I have respect for young mothers, I feel like many of them have no idea what is about to come MENTALLY.
I know I didn’t
I have struggled with mental disorders my entire life, anxiety and depression being the main monsters. I was a child that was scared of everything and only cared about what others thought of me. I built up who I was based on what other people thought I was. Never truly creating my own personality.
I have always wanted to get a tarot card reading. My wonderful friend Ashton started her own online tarot card business called Loving Sea Tarot.
I promptly scheduled a reading and what I got was a series of cards that completely connected to my life.
There are three cards and each of them are meant for a different part of your life.
Past, present and future.
My first card representing my past was the Five of Swords. This card represents the unhealthy situations I was put in. That I felt attacked and was constantly on the defense in my past. Five of Swords can also represent how my past issues can play a role in my present and future. Basically I need to let go of the way I get so defensive now due to my past. As Rafki says “The past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it.”